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So Monday we saw our OB for a follow up visit on the clomid cycles. Tim also had a repeat SA. Before going to this visit (which was routine) I felt an overwhelming sense of anxiousness. I don't know why but for some reason I felt like this would be some sort of turning point for us....and it was. Not exactly the way I had hoped but a turning point nonetheless. The Dr said he did not think he could do anymore for us. Now deep down I knew there would be a time when he would tell us this but I had always hoped I would get pregnant and it wouldn't be necessary. But alas the time has come for us to move on. The Dr began telling us all of the options a specialist could give us that he couldn't but honestly all I heard was the teacher in Charlie Brown...wahwahwah. Then came blow number 2-after months of supplements costing over $100- Tim's SA was exactly the same as before....abnormal. So that's awesome. Honestly I spent the rest of Monday and most of Tuesday in a fog. After many discussions we have decided to wait until after the holidays to see the specialist. This will give me more time to focus on this low amylose diet I started and hopefully loose some weight. Also I don't desire going through the holidays depressed and if we don't know what the specialist is going to say then there is still hope! I know that realistically we could have so many options. I just don't know how far I am willing to take the medical intervention. So the next three months will be a time of prayer. Hopefully in this time GOD will reveal to us where He wants us to go from here. I will continue to blog as I need to.

I read a verse yesterday that I am going to claim as my new motto!

"Don't worry about anything instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done. Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7

What an amazing truth.

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A little back story

My name is Allison and I am 29 years old. My husband Tim and I have been married 8 1/2 years. We started trying to expand our family 4 years ago. I was like every other girl who was 25 and thought I would be able to get pregnant right away. For the first few months I was nearly giddy anytime I was late or had the slightest hint of nausea. Eventually the "newness" of trying begin to wear off and concern began to set in. At this time in our lives we were starting a new chapter. My husband was going back to school and we were moving to a new town. We let the time pass for a couple of years without really looking into what was causing our fertility problems. It was after two years of trying at a regular OBGYN checkup that my doctor gave me what I did not realize at the time was devastating news..... I have PCOS. She told me this in a pretty nonchalant way. When I got home and began to google search (probably the worst thing I could have done) I began to panic! Needless to say I have learned a lot about this disease over the years. It has been both the bane of my existence and oddly enough a blessing. To catch you up to now... we are still seeing a regular OB. We have done three unsuccessful rounds of Clomid. We have been on a much needed break for the last couple of months. On Monday we are scheduled to see the doctor to discuss the next steps. I am ready to get back into the swing of things and know that God has a plan for what lies ahead. My plan is to use this blog as a way to chronicle our journey. I want to be able to look back at what we have been through and see the blessings at each step!

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